A-waken

One of the reasons (as of late), that I keep writing about what I call the "Richie Experience" is that sometimes in order to understand, "why something is" I find that by reflecting on the life events or interactions between myself and others, I get a glimmer of who I am, my limitations, strengths and life purpose.

In those brief moments of clarity, it all makes sense. What I mean is that when we experience something horrific, mundane or joyful, there seems to be an underlying purpose that propels us forward - whether we want to go or not. From what I have observed, people tend to ignore what is an obviously simple concept by creating a more complicated and convoluted version of the same thing................Snore.

Have you ever noticed that when a meaningful interaction or event occurs in your life, no matter what it is - there is an effect. Sometimes we notice and sometimes we don't, the key is to always pay attention.

In my experience when I am doing something wrong, my gut sinks just a little kind of like a warning and if I don't acknowledge that warning, the next invisible nudge is usually in the form of a roadblock of some sort. Everything goes wrong, slows down, there are delays...whatever. The point is that I need to stop what I'm doing and change direction.
Now, when I am doing something right - the world is at my feet. When we were told that Rich was dying in the hospital, I never thought of any wrongdoing on anyone's part-all I wanted to do was for his family to be with him and find out what was happening. I brought Chloe in case they needed blood - we didn't know anything. When we first arrived at the hospital, I immediately sensed fear and my gut was telling me to just listen and observe. When we arrived at the jail,over a period of 2 hours - everything revealed itself. It was hard because all we wanted was to do was be by Richie's side and we couldn't because obviously it was important for us to learn something else, something so ugly and sickening. There is a reason for why we needed to witness what we did. I know now, that Richie's life was sacrificed for the good of the whole and I'm sure that the purpose will be revealed in the future.

It makes complete sense, knowing that my life purpose has a defined form and it's up to me, to figure out what to do with it as long as I stay within the boundaries set by my creator.

FOR EXAMPLE:

Let's use a master artist as the creator and this scenario, painting on a canvas will be his medium: the analogy being - we each represent one painting and the artist is our creator.

1) The artist has always existed, his purpose is to create.
2) He uses many mediums, but in this scenario - it is painting.
3) He must create in order to fulfill his purpose.

In the course of art history - we have (collectively) acknowledged a certain group of individuals as "Masters" in the genre of art.
We see their creations everywhere : museums, art history texts, people's homes, on posters, in advertisements etc...ex: Botticelli, Da Vinci, Van Gogh, Vermeer, Rubens, Michelangelo, Caravaggio etc...etc... We may not always know their names, but we certainly recognize their individual mark.

Okay...

The artist forms/creates an idea in his mind - he doesn't execute each brushstroke by referencing from a formal outline. No, each stroke falls within a set parameter, within the form that has already been conceived within him.
Each brush stroke follows its own free will, the choice, the path it takes in order to produce a complete masterpiece...but remember, it still has to remain within the parameters of its conceived form.
The artist must have a structure (foundation/form) from which he will create.

So...

The artist is our creator.
The universe is the structure or form.
We are paint - texture, color, saturated, faded, bold, weak, shiny, dull and so on.
The negative space represents everything else, including other people.

In art, when negative space is in balance with the subject matter, the painting is alive and compelling. The content is irrelevant because that is always subjective - it's the balance and interaction between the negative space and the subject matter that has meaning.

Each of us is confined to the parameters set by our creator. We are each given a palette - from which, we can create our life, path, destiny. The creator bestowed free will upon us in order to self create.

How fast we fulfill our destiny is the direct proportion to HOW and when we choose to implement the individual gifts that have been bestowed upon us.

What is the fascination with astrology, anyway?
I've delved into studying astrology, only to discover all the different layers and attributes - which are constantly changing according to time. On a surface level, I can see the big picture but couldn't possibly tell you what the formula is. After 30+ years of analyzing astrological signs with friends and so on - I can absolutely say that someones birth sign defines some foundational aspect of each each individual.
When I meet someone, I can pretty much gauge what their primary sign is- if I can't then I certainly identify which elemental group they are in.

All I know is that during the course of my life, there have periods of time in which the people (friends, business associates etc)that I had surrounded myself with, all came from similar astrological groupings.

Earlier in my life, most of my friends were air signs - representing the intellect and thought.
Recently within the past five years, almost all of my closest friends are water signs - representing emotion, nurturing, healing. Seconded by fire signs - action, energy, passion.
I just realized that my three oldest women friends, since childhood are all water signs Pieces,Cancer and Scorpio. The three closest adult women friends I have now are also water signs -Cancer, Cancer and Pieces.
The men that have been the closest to me throughout my life were Father-Libra, Richie-Libra, Ian-Libra and there has always been an important Leo in every decade and currently Musa-Leo

My mother is the only Virgo that I know - which makes complete sense, if you know anything about astrology.

Oddly, I have acquired an aversion to air signs (I am an air sign) I don't really have any air sign friends anymore...strange.